Empty – Guilty Crown PV

I am afraid, afraid of losing you,

so I tried, with my hands to protect you,

but the void between us is endless,

as my hands couldn’t reach your faith;

Alas my heart turns hollow, upon seeing you’ve gone,

taken while your tears shed, this blank paper of mine,

I dreamt and kept hearing your voice of songs,

as I’m searching with this devoid curse upon time;

All was gone but here left this single memento,

a memory when our hearts joined before the oblivion,

whilst I keep going, as these vacuous feelings grow,

for the truth of your heart, which lies barren;

Done to be regret, there you were staged before me,

by a persona, that bears infinite greed upon us,

lust were sprouted, devastated with denial and lies,

for we are none, believing that this would last;

As our dream burned down falling to the abyss,

we hold each other promising, letting our tears fall,

yet, here I am waiting, as empty as can be,

for you, my long love of my life.

Freed…

Within My Heart (4)

Once I was told, that the roses are red, and violets are blue, so much life wasted, to found nothing under those that were true. A poem which I find intrigued, as it found no answer except feeling of remorse. But why are these roses are coloured in blue, and why does these violets I see is red? As the colour drips down colouring the white pavement, I sigh. So I see, roses are blue, and violets are red, so much I believe if it's true, as so much blood spilled upon this flowers that bled. A sinister impression, but all was a dream that were to be just hallucinations. It kills for blood upon the shattered coloured flowers. For nothing was to be gain, as left was only animosity towards the live's that we lead.

Freed’s Heart... 

Within My Heart (3)

I was at fault, but you said it doesn't matter. Because you're the one that was falling. What else could I've done, but only grabbed your faith before the oblivion. But no matter how much I tried, I can't pull you up. I was deeply apologetic, but you just smile and loosen up. Why I said, as your's slipping, holding you as I might. You said I've done all I could, so there's no more to be done. You want to see the end of the bargain, so you sacrifice your life for your trust. I was the one to blame but you're the one who pays for it. You were falling and I was pinned. You were smiling and I was crying.

Freed’s Heart...

Within My Heart (2)...

I have used up all my energy. I barely can move all my fingers right now. I’m down on my knees, looking at my fellow friends’ flesh being cut off. Where am I? What I’m doing here? I looked down and saw both of my legs were pierced by two arrows. Such agony how it felt, but what am I to do as all I did was sitting there with tears. Clang! A broad sword falls beside me. Who is it? While suddenly I realize it was him; the dark lord. He grabbed my head with his arm. Lift my head up so that he can see me clearly. Those eyes; those cold dark eyes. I barely noticed it, the smile on that face. A smile that knows no sympathy. Abomination as what were other people said. But there I was looking with nothing but disgusted as he tore my heart out. The blood was warm to the touch. But all what’s left of the body was just cold. My hands sheaved and weaved. As such a simple life that was. And such a simple death that was. Why this does seemed so pointless? A soul for another, that’s what they said. How unfortunate that is to live such a short life.

Freed’s Heart…

A Thought...

A person’s heart is unpredictable when it comes to feelings. It becomes predictable when you show it out of its shell. This is the words from a loon. Say it’s not a loon but just some guy with a dark past. He walked past me and mumbles some words, by then he tripped beside me as I walked the opposite. Such fate was to be earned in such unpredictable manner, and so I helped him stand just so that I feel good to care. Out of curiosity he said, why did I ever help him whereas no other soul would reach out for him? I didn’t answer him and he gave me these words. It was awkward but all seems well. He stood and walked away and mumbles more words. Am I that predictable to start with or just that I’m too scared to open up my feelings. This is something I must find out soon, as my age doesn’t counts to be younger than now.

Freed

Within My Heart...

I woke up with a bit of sweat on my forehead, realizing it was dark around me. It took me long to adjust my view, that I was in a dark room with no windows. A foul smell flew through my nostrils where I find it disgusted and wrenched. Like Death itself was present beside me within the void. There I lay myself upon a wet floor that burns my skin. I felt a chill down my spine as I tried to sit. But my body aches as if all my bones were all broken. Or it may even been shattered. With all my might I lift up my head, and then my chest to a sitting view. The world spins, as I raise my head.  Thousand of swords pierced my weak body. I grit my teeth, and hold my voice within. My lungs drew heavy breath upon the hollow black void. 

Freed’s Heart...

Now and Then, Here and There...

I let you be under the bright stars, now and then, we sit side-by-side, watching the skies denying that this moment will soon end. Hope for the best is only a dream, while cruelty was only the choice of our kin. Much more it comes to the sign of our death, here and there, we collide each one of our cells to be bonded by lust. Nothing is true, where else all are forgotten, by the memoirs of evil; we pledged that all is forbidden. So I look into your eyes, escaping the truth behind my past, following what hopes you wanted, by your hands I shall dispersed. But you flee, so that I could see, the lies of this curse, foretold that it would be fit by our prophecy. I cried endless pain, as you’ve gone towards the darkness, left me here unwinding, the memories that shrouded my mind. I beg for your return, but the path would only led me astray, walking right after you, where all lies are bared opened. One by one, the past turned, away from your mind, as so your memories of me. Embraced by the song of sorrows, all the tears turned dark, to form a soothing river, where to found your body lied still. There I am, holding your lifeless body, lies beside me a blade, which bears no name. The howling of a man, isn’t as hard as it sounds, grieves turned hollow, as sorrows pierce the heart. A tale to be heard, where now are many and then is but one, as here we are and where there is none.

Freed

Words...

On V-Day (Single Awareness Day)

S.A.D.

as today I am alone again,

on the day that be spelled as V,

a virtue which is not that I aim.

I’ve searched and waited for you,

an angel for me to fall with,

but here I am looking up to the moon,

talking to it with my feelings beneath.

It was always like this,

torn between the shreds of tears,

and gain nothing as my heart sheaves,

for love which we knew it shears.

And as empty as hollow it should be,

where my love is like a child,

waiting to be held and breath,

by the thread that help me fly.

So here I am waiting,

as aware as a single can be,

watching them smiles in between,

holding this heart for which I see;

my angel to be.

Freed

A Black Rose

I walked pass a thousand flesh,

Lifeless body on a terrain of death,

But there it stood, a flower that crude,

Upon a shattered man that bears no truth.

A flower so dark, shines befall the moon,

Silvery black petals and so it blooms,

A distant echoes running through the veins,

 So shallow that the flower sang.

A melody that seems so grim,

Dragging me towards it as if I was limbed,

My heart trembles as the sound goes near,

For as long as the blood drips, all it sheaves is fear.

Then I returned as such abomination was sent,

Back to my home where my lies were tend,

There you were sitting, reminiscing the past,

For that person you hid, with your lust.

So we touched, as we are but one,

But you left me, for all the damned that was done,

So, I plucked this dark flower from the dead,

With it cries, hoped that this would be ended.

But it’s fortunate to say I’m sorry,

Because I only could give you is this my love,

A black rose for your black heart,

In debt by Death, as misery is always what you are.

Freed

A Reason

Our Curse